Aww! My brother Aaron and my little princess Kendra! She just turned two on February 22. I can't believe it! I lived with her, saw her every single day for the first year and five months of her life, and now I hardly get to see her. It tears me up. I love that little girl so much, I'd give her the world if I could. When she came into the room tonight for the calling hours, her mom was carrying her. I didn't even see them come in, and I haven't seen Kendra in a while so I didn't know if she'd remember me or not, and that scared me to death. So, I'm standing there talking to my dad and I feel these little hands on my thigh...and I look down and there her beautiful little blonde head is! She threw her hands up and yelled "BRITTY!!!" Aww, it was heart breaking. I picked her up and spun her around and she had this death grip on me around my neck. She is so special to me. I'm getting teary eyed just writing about her, because I love her so much. Kendra just..she really made me grow up a lot. I finally started taking responsibility...her mom is somewhat a mental case. So when I lived with them, I was like a live in nanny. I seriously, got up with her every morning, even when I had school. When Seth and I would go out to eat, she'd be right there with me, I'd go shopping with her, we were inseparable and that's why it's so hard now. She couldn't say my name before, and when she said my name tonight, it was just, so intense.
This picture was when she was about 7 months old. When she was finally sitting up by herself. She NEVER crawled! The little weirdo just scooted around on her booty to get to where she wanted to go. I remember once, I was on the couch, right where she was sitting in the pic, and she disappeared...I FREAKED! This was when she was about at year old, and I could hear her laughing, but it was coming from upstairs!! I ran up the steps and she was sitting there laughing like a little moron! I was so in shock! Her wild ass went all the way up the steps, all by herself! She's just..so precious. You can see the wildness in her face right here....
I think she was about 10 months in this picture. That food on her face..daily ritual for me. She' d have the shit EVERYWHERE! In her hair, just..all over the damn place! She would always do that, lay her head down on her high chair like that, she knows she's cute as hell. Crazy little girl! But I taught her to do this thing..I'd hold her and I'd say "Kendra, are you a nice baby?" and she would like slam her little head against my chest, like she was loving me. I also taught her to "Shake her laffy taffy and her money maker." Cutest fucking thing I've ever seen! She just shakes her hips and laughs like a loon the whole time. Seriously, whenever the song "My Humps" by the Black Eyed Peas or "Laffy Taffy" would come on, the girl would go NUTS!! It was before she was able to stand by herself, so we'd sit infront of the glass door, so she could see her reflection, and she would just dance and dance until she'd just fall asleep right then and there in my arms.
Last picture, I promise. This was from tonight. That is Kendra and Madelynn, my other little cousin. Maddy still had her pig tails in at that moment in time, Kendra had already ripped hers out. Basically, those two were pulling me around the funeral home the whole damn night. Kendra would grab my hand (like she's doing to Heather in this pic) and then Maddy would take my other hand and they would want to run like wild idiots, all over! They never tire, I swear! So then one of them would want me to pick them up, so then I'd have to carry them both. I didn't care though. So, this is the funniest thing, my mom was holding Kendra, and I was standing there and I said "Hey Kendra, do you wanna go shopping?" She made this like, shocked face, made like an O with her mouth and nodded her little head yes! I said, "What do you want Britty to buy you baby?" This is what she said, the only thing she said..."Frog." What the Sam Hell? HAHA! So I guess I'm going to be buying her a frog soon. Little cutie.
Um...so I just realized I went sooooooo overboard,but when it comes to that little girl, she just makes me do that! I can't help myself! I hope my kids are as cute as she is! :) I love her. Hehe! See guys, I do have a heart, I'm not a sex maniac alllll the time! But seriously, my mom can't get over how much she looks like I did when I was her age. I had that blonde hair like that..it was insane! I had those big blue eyes, but they turned to green after awhile.
Me and my mom bought my brother this suit to wear tomorrow, and I told mom I want to get a picture of me, her and Aaron together, then me and Aaron..b/c I have like no pictures of us together. If it turns out okay, I'll show you guys! Tehehehe! Okay, I am going now...now that I totally showed you guys a side of me that is not often visible...so...ENJOY IT! Moment is now over. Time to fuck.
Love you!
Britt
15 comments:
Is that the one you were talking about that you stayed with & took care of & shit?!?
She's adorable!! I love kids... they make me smile all the time!! I want a whole football team and a cheerleader squad... okay, maybe one cheerleader! LOL... I want all boys & 1 girl!!
Yes, Kori, that is my beautiful little girl! :) It's a shame she isn't mine. I love her so much! So how many kids do you want?! I'm not sure how many I want..but I want atleast one girl and one boy. Hehe! I'll probably have twins...my aunt and uncle are twins, so that makes my chances go through the roof. I'd rather do that, that way..I can do it in one clean swipe...and boom, there's two! :)
aww, she is just SO ADORABLE!! omg, she is soooo cute!! bless her cotton socks! :)
i totally know where you're coming from, when my niece was born, i proper looked after her - solid for two months 'coz i was sick and didn't go school and my sister was really busy and stuff! but then she went back to Africa and it just broke my heart to say goodbye! a year and a half later she came back for a holiday and she had no idea who i was! :( but at the airport i swear for a bit she just look tranfixed, like she knew me and kinda slid into my arms, it was strange, even my older sister noticed!
Counting all the miscarriages I had while being with Ryan, two in high school, and my son... I'd have 7 kids by now! DAMN! I wanted at least 5 kids before I turn 30, but hey... can't be greedy with what miracle God gives... and my son sure is my miracle! But, I would love to have twins too... my dad's side is the only one with twins... my mom just has Irish assfucks! LOL
My daughter never crawled either, just scooted around on her little bum..so cute..my baby girl likes to shake it ..just like her mommy too. LOL They are so cute and innocent when they're young then they grow up to be us
She's so cute! Reading what you wrote was like feeling all your love for her! I like the moment when kids fall asleep, they're like angels on this infernal machine earth is.
I love when my little cousin take my hand to "play kitchen" in her bedroom! And I love to brush her hair and I'm kinda practicing motherhood :)
I'll surely adopt a couple of kids in the future, there's a high possibility that I won't be able to have kids.
Kori: Four kids? Dang woman! You better get busy..busier than I know you already are! ;) That is really sad about you having those miscarraiges..Kendra was my cousin's miracle baby, his wife had 5 miscarraiges before they had Kendra. She's so special. :)
Zee: It is so hard to say goodbye to little children that have a special place in your heart. I'm sure she realizes what a wonderful aunt she has! :)
Michelle: How many kids do you have, my dear? What is your daughter's name? Little kids are so cute!
Tessa: I wouldn't mind adopting kids. I'd get them really, really young though. Some people say that they could never adopt because they could never love the child as their own, but the thing is, when any child needs somebody, anybody..SOMEBODY needs to step up. That is really sad about you probably not being able to have children. That would be hard. In any sense, I'm sure you'd be a wonderful mother! :) I love you, girl!
I love you too honey :)
I'm sure you'll be a good mother too, the way to talk about sweet Kendra is so heartwarming.
I'd like to give all my love to a kid who hasn't been lucky to have a family. I'd love to become mother and try to be as good as my mother.
Could you give a big kiss to that sweetheart from me?
Yeah, the worst thing is saying bye, breaks my heart everytime i have to! :( but hopefully my neice and my sister are gonna come over for 3 months in May! can't wait! :)
and what you said about adopting kids, i completely agree! i mean a child needs someone and i'd be able to adopt a kid and love he/she as my own!
Yeah... the doctor says it's hard for my body to carry a baby to full term... so when I was pregnant with Dominic, I walked around for maybe the first 4 months... after that... I was on bed rest for the rest of my pregnancy. B/c I always had miscarriages at 3-4 months, the doctor wanted to be careful this time so I did exactly what he said and I had my healthy baby boy... he was 10 lbs... what a fuckin fat ass kid! LMFAO!
And I absolutely agree on adopting kids... I would adopt but I want to adopt within family (is that selfish?) I want a child that's either blood related to me or my husband and since all my cousins and family members keep their own kids it's kinda hard! I'm too scared to adopt a kid outside of my family.
Zee: I know how you feel too... it's always hard to say goodbye to them... I use to watch my cousin's daughter when I was younger and she was like everything to me... still is... I'll always love that little girl like she's my own!
Britt: Awww Kendra so precious! Her and Aaron look like they're having a lot of fun in that pic:)
Tessa: I'm sorry to hear you might not be able to have kids, I hope your not too upset about it. Either way, I know you'd be a great mommy:)
Kori: That's so cute, it's like you're so lucky to have Dominic (your son, not the actor foo!). LOL, he weighed 10 lbs!
As for me, I don't know if I want kids but if I do, I'd like to adopt. I believe that in life we always find people and we fall in love with them. So it's kind of the same thing with adopting a child. You come together.
Tricia: You are so sweet...despite how you think you may come across, that was such a sweet thing for you to say about coming together. :)
Kori: Bed rest for that long...wow! TEN POUNDS?? I weighed like 7, which I think is average. I'm so average. My cousin's son weighed 11.5 pounds when he was born, he was a week late. No, it isn't selfish of you to want to adopt inside the family, I can understand where you're coming from.
Tessa: Of course I will kiss her for you! She's sooo funny. At the funeral yesterday she kept saying "hot dog" and she has the cutest voice, ever. She calls me Britty, it's so sweet.
Zee: Does your family realize how great of a person you are? I cannot believe you are only 15! My BROTHER is 15...it's like so strange. You are so mature for your age, and I love you.
I love you all! Wow girls, we're getting deep here! I like it!
Thanks Tricia, you're so sweet :)
Brit: I can imagine her sweet voice saying: "Hot dog! Hot dog!"
Britt, Tessa: Awww thanks guys *blushes*. We're having a "moment" here, lol. I love you guys<3
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